Hey. I know what I did was wrong. I did the most wrong of the wrong. I was unable to let go of a friendship so you feel like I chose him over you. Go ahead I understand. I wanted to let you know that I'm truly sorry. I want to let whoever else is reading this that Thomas is a great guy. You know why?

-he'll throw sand in your eyes just to ask you out
-he'll give you piggy back rides even if he is carrying many tennis balls and rackets at the same time
-he'll hold your hand and walk forever down the beach
-he'll go to the block with you even though he doesn't want to
-he'll make those little moments special like going to eat In N Out
-he'll drive all the way to Fountain Valley and Santa Ana just to watch your tennis matches
-he's always there to make everything okay even if you just lost an important tennis match
-he'll back you up even when everyone else is hating
-he'll sneak you out in the middle of the night just so you guys can go eat guppys
-he'll give you back rubs in the middle of class
-he'll hop through your window just to see you
-he'll make the worst things like you losing an officer position all better
-he's amazing so that everyone loves him
-he'll take care of your dog when no one else would
-he'll spend 30 dollars just to get you the movie you wanted
-he'll teach you little things like how to drive the freeway
-he'll spend time to make you a card even though he has homework
-he'll help you out even if you ran the car into the gate he'll be willing to help you get the scratch off
-he'll race over the instant you need him
-he's wonderful in that everyone respects him
-he'll cheer you up by singing songs even if it's oldies
-he'll act super cute and grab your hand to tell you he loves you
-he'll randomly tell you you're beautiful just to let you know
-he's amazingly loyal and will never let anything get between you two
-he'll come out to whatever you're doing (like a tennis match) even though he has a ton of homework to do
-he's not afraid to act like a goof just to make you smile (even if it is a little gay sometimes)
-he'll always make time to help you with your homework
-he's always motivating and always supporting whatever you want to do
-he's forgiving and will let you make many mistakes and forgive you
-he's cuddly and when he hugs you the world becomes safe and everything's okay
-he's super smart and knows the answer to almost everything
-he's passionate and when he loves something he'll stop at no ends to achieve it
-he's a hard worker and is willing to stay up super super late to finish his homework
-he's caring and will make things all better like a band aid
-he'll make up silly reasons just to go see you even if it is for a slight minute
-he's understanding and is willing to look different point of views
-he'll make the cutest face when you same something stupid, silly, or confusing
-he'll grab your hand and pretend that you're his slave but it's okay, you love it when he does
-he'll call you woman but you know that's the greatest sign of affection
-he'll give you never ending love that just lasts forever
-he's really patient and won't complain
-he'll shop with you even though he's tired and wants to do something else
-he'll take you to see the newest movie that you've been craving to see
-he'll take you out to eat boiling crab just cause he knows you like it
-he'll even save you the corn cause that's your favorite part of the meal
-he'll work hard to try and save you money
-he'll take you out to eat and always tell you how perfect it all was
-he'll tell you you're beautiful even when you're sick and prissy
-he'll be kind and let you blow up on him when you're pmsing
-he'll hold your arm on a rainy day so you won't slip
-he'll shout out 'IT'S NOT A RACE' so he can be the one to open the door for you
-he'll tell you he loves you even if that means it's in front of his friends
-he'll give you a big bear hug and never want to let you go
-he'll blow off his friends and not work on his car just to hang out with you
-he'll web cam with you and look super cute
-he'll try to type viet words like cam on and you'll probably misread it
-he's very caring and protects you when you're sick
-he'll offer himself as a tissue if you're sick
-he'll sit through your favorite movies even if it means it's a barbie movie
-he'll hide from you behind the tree then come out and scare you
-he'll tell you you're wonderful and make you feel appreciated everyday
-he'll be honest and tell you if he doesn't like the dress =P
-he'll appreciate all that you do for him even if it is something so small like wear a skirt
-he'll make everything seem so calming even if it means sitting in the grass waiting for greer to open the door
-he'll offer you his jacket even on the coldest days
-he'll dress super cute in his farmer's outfit
-he'll go through great means to make something perfect even if it means borrowing his friend's bmw to make you happy
-he'll be cute and try to lie to you about your Christmas gift but he really bought you what you wanted
-he's really thoughtful and always watches out for you
-he'll make you feel like the luckiest girl in the world when he looks into your eyes
-he'll make you feel so important, even more important than his car
-he'll treat you nice and not cold and harsh even though you've hurt him so many times
-he's the perfect man

Please forgive me. Thomas you are the farthest thing from what they say. I messed up. I messed up. I admit it that I'm a bad girlfriend. I want to cherish you. Sorry. I don't want to lie to you anymore. I don't want to hurt you anymore.

Love,
Carmen

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when will this pain stop.